the seas you find yourself in are worthy. honor the way you move in the world.

it’s important for you to honor the way that you move in the world, even when you do the work of course correction.

you put your rudder in the water and you give a suggestion of movement and the boat moves in a different way.

you don’t need to drop the anchor

haul all the cargo out to sea

pull out the map 

and set course in a new direction.

what you will find though the process of course correction, of slight change — feeling out that the wind to the south sure is warm, and you like the way the breeze feels on your face and you're going to point over there - is that the wind has already been carrying you.

what you might find as you make small movements that are not based so much not the logical thinking part of your brain as they are on the sensual feeling aspects of your body and your skin, is that you will find yourself in a vast ocean, with warm water and waves, the sun brightly shining down on impossible shades of blue, your skin warm and your spirit light. and you might say how did i get here? i didn’t make a decision to come here. 

you didn’t make one decision, you made many small decisions. and so, when you are caught in the frantic feeling of finding yourself amidst the choppy grey ocean during the storm and you say ‘how did i get here, i’ve got to capsize and start swimming’ we just want to remind you that that is not the way. and that the franticness of your nervous system shall not be the dictator of you.

the seas you find yourself in now are worthy. the questions you have asked yourself to get here are worthy. that you have steered your boat into some waters which you now feel are not as suited to you is not because your rudder was moved by the hand of laziness or uncaring, the hand that was there was a hand of safety, of learning, and sometimes your young hand, the hand of your young bright spirit.

we want you to know that these courses were not charted from a place of giving up, from a place of not caring. it was just that you didn’t recognize how much power you had. because you can’t know until you know. 

and so now, you are still learning how to weild the power of the will. it is wily! no-one has ever learned how to tame fire, really. even in this modern age, a fire can be one of the most destructive forces when it is unchecked or when it is time. and so the will, which is fire, can be a hard one to understand how to navigate.

it is important because the desire of the will can so quickly burn someone up with the whispers of being all-powerful. the story that ‘i should have created all of these different things,’ supposing that you had power over your environment every step of the way. 

you know, too much fire will lead to insanity. 

so how, then, do you stoke the fire of your will? how, then, do you honor the parts of you that have the strength to make powerful decisions? how, then, do you honor these parts of you without letting your ego go aflame and burning yourself out, thinking that you have created the whole world around you?

into your watery center, it is time to bring the fire of the will. and so we say - steer your rudder towards the things that feel good. letting this simple directive allow you to, again, let the hand of the bright one inside of you grip the warm handle of the wheel, her face to the wind, just making slight movements. what would it mean to orient to your pleasure? 

your goals do not have to be grandiose. your heart understands that the way to make changes is not by invalidating everything that has come before. that is a surefire way to make yourself collapse under the weight of shame. your heart is intelligent to realize that the way to move is in increments. honor where you have been. honor your way. 

we wish so much that we could just pour into your body and being all of the awareness of the world around you and the factors that have conspired - both positive and negative - to bring you into this moment. we wish that we could pull you back to where we are, which is looking at the star map, for you to see that you are right on time. that you are right on schedule. you haven’t made any wrong turns. you haven’t made any mistakes. you are at a point of realization. you are at a point where the muscle of your will is ready to exert, and in a new way. learning a new movement.

gently, gently you put the wood of joy onto your fire. the fragrant sweetness will steam up and propel that motor. the movement will feel so different than the ways it felt before. 

make sure to move your body - the motor and the movement of your body will support the motor and movement of your will. walking, dancing, etc. 

eating food on a regular schedule if you can. having breakfast, lunch and dinner at roughly the same times every day. creating a stability and home inside of your body so that all of your desires have a place to know that they are going to be able to root into. that you are creating the garden bed. you are using the dark time of the winter to nourish the dark soil. and in the spring, you will have some new ideas. for now, letting yourself nourish the creativity. do not ask big things of yourself, only small things. this is how you will keep the fire of your will from burning you up. 

do not get lost in the trap of self-judgement. use the binoculars that the sailors can use to see the stars and navigate. use the binoculars for your navigation. and when you find that you turn the lense of detail to all the things in your life that you don’t feel good about, remember that it is easy to taint precise and detailed vision by focusing on what looks ugly. do not get lost in the mirror.