You must learn to hold yourself in the light of truth

Just because you don’t know everything

Doesn’t mean you don’t know anything.

You can be humble, humbled, right sized and brave,

And still be confident, knowing, full of your own power and self worth.

The two do not have to cancel each other out.

In fact, learning to hold them at the same time is a lifetime achievement award, it is one of the Great Balances you will work toward in this lifetime.

The antidote to pride is not worthlessness; it is not a likeness to humility.

Humility is work because it makes you see what you don’t know in addition to what you do know. It invites you to see the entire picture, true for what it really is.

Worthlessness is simply a shortcut, borne of shame, blame and guilt.

They are not the same. It is imperative that you learn the difference.

You have work to do here, work that requires you to see your worth, brilliance, flaws, areas for growth, work that requires you to continually assess and reconfigure your place in things, the power you hold, the power you do not hold, and how that affects you and affects others.

This requires your attention. This requires your truth. This requires your clear-mindedness.

Do not slip into worthlessness. DO NOT DO IT.

And, if you do, know that it is not of God. Know that it is not of your Higher Self, the part of you that calls you ever towards truth, towards knowing, towards the untangling of lies and your own traumas and pain.

The medicine of Truth does not contain such shortcuts as worthlessness.

This is not the Truth of who you are.

You must learn to hold yourself in the light of Truth. Not your projections, not your fears. When you are contracted you cannot see things clearly, like a fun house mirror.

You have to ask for help. Ask, wait, reset, receive. Repeat.

Ask for humility and it will be given to you, if you ask with an open and honest heart. We will show you, when you ask we will show you.

Worthlessness is your own tool, designed out of your fear of a lack of humility.

But you sometimes have to wait for a lesson, wait for your prayers to be answered, wait for it to be revealed to you, rather than concocting up this cheap substitute, two dimensional in its reality.

Ask for humility, and wait, and breathe. That’s how you get it.

just because you can see it doesn’t mean you have to fix it

right now - the earth feels so opened up.  

it’s just like any time you have experienced a heartbreak. and all of the heartbreaks before seem to crop up out of nowhere like little weeds in your garden. it’s the same thing that is happening right now. the chasm of grief is wide. 

so all of those little weeds - you thought you pulled it out by the root but guess what! the root is still in there. 

so, what a time to look inside. what a time to be able to see.  right now you can see downnnn farther than you’ve ever been able to see.

it’s okay that you don’t currently have the resources to navigate what is at your deepest depths. nobody does. 

right now is a time for observing. it’s not a time for solving all that you can see. some of these things you might find make their way towards revolution and completion. and that’s good. 

but just because you see something, something old -  prehistoric, ancestral - swimming around down there at the bottom of this portal, you don’t have to take the solving on your shoulders right now.

you are three feet under the surface right now, and you are used to being up on the surface where you can breathe more easily. but right now you've gotta use your effort to get up to breathe, and then you sink back down. 

and then when you're down there, you look down the wormhole and you see everything that is swimming about. 

you don’t have the breath to go all the way down to the deepest part right now. that’s okay. name what you see. breathe with what you see. let it be enough to see. let yourself be in the phase of witnessing.

we wish that you could see from this perspective what is happening right now.  it’s not normal to have this level of visibility.

you’re not going to be able to solve everything that comes up and whatever you’re doing to just breathe, to feel good in your body, is so important right now.

the key for this time is to keep drawing air. to keep returning to kindness in yourself, and to take compassion for yourself seriously. 

call sweetly to the world you want to bring forth so it learns its name

now is the time for collective dreaming.

what is the world you desire to live in? ask it of yourself and spend the time to answer, with your friends and beloveds.

our bodies are mechanisms of return, each limb +  system intelligent

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knowing what they need to know to come back to right relationship with the earth and with the people around us.

what is original sin? original deviation? this question only matters if it is instructive to you. you can look behind you for answers, but also look to where you want to be.

lament your laments and grieve your griefs. but do not get so fixated on the minutia of the past deviation from your nature that your spirit is deluded into believing that this is all that is possible.

name it the diversion. you’ve got so many names for it already. capitalism, patriarchy, white supremacy, greed, global warming, entitlement. you can keep namin’ names so long as it helps you. 

the purpose in the naming is not to get hung up on the labels, but to use them as stepping stones to create something different. 

as much as you can - when you name the deviation, name the alignment too. call this new quality by its name. sing to it from the depths of what you know can be true. 

call its name so lovingly that it becomes convinced that it can walk on this earth and have a home here. that it unveils its perfect flowered self out of the closet of possibility and into the realm of the living. 

tend to these saplings of truth and rightness. talk to them daily. remember that plants love to hear your voices to help them grow. coo, sweetly, at the world you want to call forth so it learns its name. 

there is no such thing as an unanswered prayer

transmission tuesday :: there is no such thing as an unanswered prayer :: 

it is crucial that you accept this is a gift for you.

all things - not violence, but mysteries - can be gifts. things can be given to you, like this time has been given to you, wrapped in an undetermined package. 

the shape, even if you were able to guess if, could not reveal to you the implications of what will unfold. 

many layers, many dimensions. 

the things that you ask for, long-term — delivery from this way of violence, baseness, this out of alignment with the heavenly nature, the truth of how you could operate here — is more of this. look like this, magnified. can look like more of this in the short term. 

child - and we say “child" not to be condescending but to simply name you for where + what you are, because your being cannot now fathom from the perspectives of angels, of eons, redwood trees, the planets and rocks that are older and even the spirits themselves that are older still — so we say “child” with love — 

child, you cannot comprehend the ways deliverance is being handed to you. you have prayed on your knees for change, but change cannot be delivered in a package that is obvious or easy or comfortable. 

change often will look like more of the same, an amplification of the same.

your saying about “the long game” sums things up here quite nicely.

this gift you’ve been given. the gifts of this time, this illness, even the gift of donald j trump —

do not curse a gift just because you do not understand it.

trust is foundational. trust is key.

you don’t have to trust that your prayers are being answered and listened to, because i can tell you that as factually as newton transcribed the laws of physics that they are. 

there is no such thing as an unanswered prayer.

when you ask with your heart, it comes out here to the universe. boom. simple, unavoidable, the truth of the momentum of things.

many people in many ways are asking for the same thing - deliver us from the evil in ourselves. deliver us from the evils we have created in this world. you keep asking.

so - how do you interact with this gift?

1 — remember that it is a gift.

2— remember that gifts like these take time to reveal themselves and you’ll never be able to see the full playing out of these influences in your lifetime. but i promise you, the gift is here.

the gift is not the suffering, but what it awakens inside of you to witness, what it awakens inside of you collectively to experience and the choices you make now from that new place. no-one can say how the fallout will be.

but we promise — many of you have asked for a new world. have asked for this to crumble. it is happening. on earth, it can look like hell.

it is so important for you right now to realize + remember that if nothing else. you are on the path to healing. this is a gift. this is medicine.

so, cultivate gratitude in yourself. build an altar for this time. not out of lip-service but in reverence to All-You-Cannot-See inside of this. this perspective that you find yourself in.

we love you — all of you. so much and equally. be curious abut this gift. we will open and she, the earth, will open to you. this is all.

<this message was channelled by me on 3/30/20 on chinookan lands in portland, or. shared humbly and with such love for you all ❤️>

let the stillness of the outside world reverberate inside of you

:: a new moon blessing + ceremony

what you need to know is that it is okay to take care of you right now. 

there are a lot of people needing. many many arms reaching out. remember that as they reach out they are reaching towards support, but that does not have to come from you.

build your den in the earth. your little fox-hole. bring to you what nourishes you and rest here. the extended hibernation is happening.

you get to prioritize yourself. it is not selfish. it’s honest. 

unplug the plugs. 

see what the deep of this time has to offer you. ask in the quiet. 

it’s okay to stabilize. it’s okay to calm. 

it is important. 

breathe in the earth and let the stillness that you are cultivating in the outside world reverberate inside of you. 

when we remember the seed and the quiet, we remember why we came here. 

what we are doing.

this deep purpose. 

it’s a magical, deep time, the potential of this dark. 

this time of all possibility.

it is not that you ask yourself what you want to create, but you look inside of the blueprint that is there already. your desires don’t have to be manufactured, they live inside of you. 

now is the time for you to wish upon the brightness of the stars, tonight in the darkness of potential.

what is the world that you want to create? let yourself YEARN for it. ask for it. 

with your whole heart.

say and write and feel and pray the words. this is the most important part of any ritual — let your yearnings for the world we are creating be known to you, feel them all the way through. let them spill out of your heart and into the cosmos. 

and don’t hold back. 

your desires are seeds inside of you waiting to actualize

we frame desire as though it’s based in some kind of morality. bad + good, right or wrong - a pull that’s not to be trusted - sinful, tainted by the want of the body and human-ness.

yet:

flowers have desire

trees have desire.

desire that is embedded into the seeds of them, desire for sunlight, for the manifestation of fullness, of green and beauty.

your desire IS this. it is the seed that exists inside of you. all of your muscles-- physical, energetic, mental, emotional - are aching to actualize it. like a baby learning to walk, our beings never stop striving to create + reach towards that which we know and feel to be our potential, to be possible. personally and collectively.

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for our personal + collective healing, growth and freedom.

we feel the potential inside of us. we feel the yearnings of truth that are seeds inside of us. seeds that know

fulfillment

actualization

wonder and

the vastness of our potential.

our desire can be frightening. what can it feel like to truly let ourselves want? are we setting ourselves up for a letdown by acknowledging our wants?

but the biggest letdown is a desire unspoken, not a desire un-actualized. one that has been told:

"not now

not here

there’s no space for you here, i won’t hear you."

that’s the voice that will bring you around to the next life, even stronger next time, not to be ignored. 

your desires are the seeds of creation. the map, the blueprint of what’s possible. allowing yourselves to have them is allowing the call to be set, the sound to ring out into the air so you can move forward to it. the first part of creation. 

god spoke and the world was made. you speak and you make your world. being witnessed allows it to be amplified. allow the wisdom of your desires to be felt and spoken.